May is quickly becoming my least favorite month, which is unfortunate, because it used to be my favorite. But it suddenly feels like there’s so much to do and plan! It’s hard to think about myself, and my birthday (or Mother’s Day) when I’m trying to play E’s birthday. I’m trying to find a happy medium, though, where I’ll still celebrate and enjoy myself but not be too stressed. I joked this year that I’m going to start moving my birthday to February, because I could use some more fun there, and less to do in May.
Mother’s day was actually lovely - we ordered take out breakfast from our local diner and sat around the table sharing food until our bellies were full, and then the kids gave me the drawings and cards they’d made me, and Tom surprised me with a mother’s day flag for our flag pole. We also went to a local farm to visit some animals, play on a playground and get some donuts.
We got a key lime pie for my birthday that we all agreed wasn’t our favorite, but considering we’ve had a lot of sweets this month, it was okay. We acknowledged the day, and the kids made me cards. The day fell on a Wednesday, which is always weird, and I messed up and didn’t get my free Starbucks drink, but I think I did better than last year, but maybe a little worse than the year before at celebrating, and I’ll work on remembering more next year.
And don’t get me wrong, as much as my birthday used to be my favorite day of the year, I have gladly moved on for these littles. They didn’t take my birthday, they gave me so much more to care about, that my birthday pales in comparison now. It’s the way I don’t even think when I’m making breakfast, I automatically make a two egg omelet for myself because I know that as soon as I sit down G will appear and eat half of it. He thinks he’s being funny and taking my food but I love it. I love when I hear a voice from the back seat asking me to play ‘Change the World’ even though we’ve listened the the Ed Sheeran song they’re referring to (“What Do I Know”) ten times already on this drive.
So it’s also for them that I want to work on myself and celebrating myself more - so they see that as a normal and healthy part of life.
