As soon as I found out I was pregnant, I became obsessed with future holidays. They'd be so much more fun to experience with children! When Easter rolled around, I was so jealous of friends who had babies already. I felt like I was missing out!
And so I set my sights on Halloween. We'd have a baby and it would be amazing. I couldn't wait to make it fun.
And now it's here... and I'm kind of stuck. I don't have as much energy and free time as I did when I was pregnant, so anything we do needs to fit in the time we have. And costumes? I imagined this to be SO FUN. The reality is I kind of hate every costume I've seen. Things I want just don't exist, and the options we have just seem so boring. Not special enough for our FIRST HALLOWEEN!
The good news is E doesn't really care. It would actually be easier if he did. If he could come to us and say, I want to be a pumpkin, then I would totally make him the pumpkiniest pumpkin there is. But since he can't tell me that, dressing him as a pumpkin just seems so expected.
And now that I'm a parent, I'm realizing there's a whole other side that comes with holidays. Before Halloween was awesome and candy and trick or treating and costumes and FUN! Now I see stomach aches and rotten teeth and cultural appropriation and food allergies and holy cow there's so much more to worry about!
So this might be a trial and error Halloween. Sorry E, but by being our first child, you become our guinea pig for figuring out what we actually want to do.
